Finally!

Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm. - Winston Churchill

Seriously. In the quest for my perfect blog, I have gone through about three different domain names, seven different layouts and about three different themes. This is why, after writing this, I will have three different first blog posts. But oh well. As Winston Churchill said above, at least I never lost my enthusiasm!

So basically, this blog is going to be about my journey to finding what I believe in. I intend to read a few more books and write a bit more in detail about my feelings and my life, something I have not done before in an attempt to escape the label Emo.

But I guess now that I am approaching my 20s, I am almost past being called emo. At the least, I am not a very emotional person anyway. I would rather smile and laugh and talk things through than cry into my pillow.

These days I don't have much to cry about, except for the inane sense of boredom that has crept into my life. Well, not so much boredom. More so, sameness. Last year was my year of change. This year seems to be my year of coping with this change while staying in the same rut. I've barely travelled this year, I've barely learnt any new things. I've barely had any new experiences.

The only new thing has been that I have pretty much renounced a great portion of my religion, and yet I am still not ready to give it up entirely. When you have believed in something for so long, it is very hard not to fear the hell fire.

So I've bought the Koran but I have also bought some athiest literature. I look forward to reading some more christian literature such as C.S. Lewis and am also hoping to dabble in a bit of the Dalai Lama's work this year. Hopefully I will have time to chronicle it in a way that won't be too boring.

I'm just beginning to realize that life is simply too short to waste it on a lifestyle of nothingness.

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